My year is going terribly. I can’t afford food. I can’t afford necessary prescriptions. Tried to go to food bank, but they said I can’t come because I went last month and you can only go once every 45 days. I tried to apply for food stamps, but they said applications are closed during the shut down.  My family won’t help me, they in fact actively told me that I don’t deserve their help. Their literal EXACT words.   My disability was cancelled in the summer despite me requesting I receive it during the appeal, and the appeal is of course slow as hell.  Nothing is going right. I don’t feel like doing anything, I don’t feel like going anywhere, I know that everyone hates me and I don’t know what to do.